pink flame

What are you doing this rainy Saturday? Me, searching for pretty photos :) You?

I don't suppose I'll get around writing the post on Teacher's Day anymore. Recent happenings have dampened my mood to post anything new either...maybe I'll be a little perked up after this Saturday. Will be going to a party, where the guests are all kids ranging from age 5-17, mostly primary students. Lovely. They cheer me up all the time, despite being a tad annoying at times. and their laughter is infectious. :) Looking forward to it.

Waiting for all the photos from friends to upload :D

So much to do, so little time.

Time spent in the kitchen is a hectic one.

ECA today was a flurry of baking activities- measuring flour and sugar, beating the eggs, heating the oven, kneading the dough, swiss-rolling the dough...and frying mee hoon, not that its a "baking activity". It's a lot of work, but it's fun, and I love that we now get along okay with fellow schoolmates we'd never talked to since the first day of school four years ago until we sign up to the cookery club. Most of them are really easy-going people :)


Card making is making me busy, and the worst thing I could face when I make cards is having nil inspirations, and when I have no inspiration, I tend to mull over it for a long time, waiting for the "ting!" to come, and hours passed by just like that. AND whenever that happens, I don't have enough time to do other chores like homework or watching TV (I'm only human). Luckily, my progress is uh, not so bad. 3 cards in one week.... Oh alright, so I know that's very bad progress but spare me, I'm busy everyday.


Will be busy tomorrow too. I've got to go for performance practice at NINE in the morning tomorrow. So much for sleeping in even for a single weekend. Tomorrow will be exhausting, I bet. What with all the dancing and prancing around the studio, singing too. I'm hoping the practice goes perfect though, cuz it'll be the last one before the actual performance on Teacher's Day. OOhh, looking forward to this year's (!), cuz everyone knows it won't be as dead boring like last year's considering what we'd witnessed some other group performing on reheasal that day. Especially 5B's :) Their's was awesome.


Have to start getting busy checking on industrial design courses too. Oh yes, I've decided...I want to go to this field, and I guess, in a way, it suits me best. I hope I'm making a right and definite choice about this finally. Wish me luck.


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How could you have known?

Mood swings does trigger me to do shocking stuffs. Shocking for others.


For instance, today, in bus. I'm usually quite silent and tend to keep to myself around people I don't really know, and that's how I am during my journey home everyday. The people in my bus are good-natured people, though a teeny bit boisterous at times, chatting loudly and even yelping sometimes -- I'm fine with all that, ONLY if I'm not trying to get some sleep after all the hours spent in school, all the time worrying about not being able to catch up with school work. It's taxing you know, even though I'm not using any physical energy whatsoever. So when my fellow bus mates DO make noise, I flare up. It's irrational, but I get really irritated. Today, I think I scared one kid in the bus. Everyone was more silent after that. Good for me.



Went to Art class today, and I'm a little disappointed I had to pencil sketch. Bah. I prefer water painting, mixing colours in the palette. It's like creating magic at times, cuz you can never have the same colour everytime you blend them together, and it can be surprisingly pretty too :) Anyway, pencil sketching needs a lot of time, for all the details, that sort, and every knows I'm not that meticulous a person. : /



WHY DO GIRLS BITCH ABOUT ONE ANOTHER? Or worse still, of their supposed best buddies? It never fails to amuse me how some people can act all friendly in front of the people they actually hate. I'm not even saying friendly as in "Oh, hi. How's your day?" friendly, I'm saying laughing-making jokes-hanging out-together friendly. In front of the "victims", they can be like "Oh, your hair's so pretty!", "Oh. you're so generous.", "Oh, let me help you..."...Oh this, Oh that, all the sugar-coated lies, sucking up to the "victims", kissing their asses.



BUT what happens when the victims turn their heads? Those insecure, low-self esteemed cows will bitch relentlessly about them. How terrible the supposed-buddy actually looks having her hair braided, how disgusting the way she behaves, how she thinks she's so pretty, how she thinks she can...etc etc. I mean, seriously, don't you people have a CONSCIENCE? How two-faced can you people be? How pretentious can you get?



Why are you so miserable? Is it jealousy or contempt? If so, why do you have to put on a mask and pretend? Also, does humilliating and putting down others satisfy you?