Rambles

Because I need to start (almost) every post with a big ass picture of myself, that's why.


Hello people of the new year!
 I'm thrilled to share this news with you: I'm officially done with Architecture.

Semester 1, that is.

Wait, what? You didn't truly think I'd given up so soon, did you? No, because that would be a shame on my part. I love this course despite all the assignments and the not-getting-enough-sleep/not-having-a-life shit. Honestly. I wouldn't know what else to do with my life if not this. I truly want to do well and go to a good school after the degree...that would be in another 3 years or so.

Why yes, I'm already dwelling on it although it's still early and I'm not even done with first year yet. I guess it's part of growing up, being wiser, being an "adult". Omg. Adult. I'm no longer a teenager. This scares me a little. I MEAN OMG. All I wanted as a child, was to become an adult. Now that I'm nearly stepping onto that line, I desperately want time to slow down because I want to do something meaningful. While others are making little life achievements of their own...what have I done that I would be proud to tell my kids next time? Nothing. 20 years old with no shining trophies of  "life achievement"

But then again, what is deemed an achievement? Because I was told, at the end of the day, achievements or not, as long as you're living a full happy life, it's enough. I realize I'm contradicting myself right now. One moment I was on about accomplishing something meaningful in life, and the next I'm self-comforting and go "Oh, as long as you're happy." You have to get used to this by now, right? Me and my contradictions. haha I don't know what I want!

So anyway. Enough of that! I have a new year resolution in the spirit of making myself a better person (and thus having a meaningful life. (thus) a happy life- one thing leads to the other!). I'm excited for myself lol! Little steps at a time, and then we'll leap over the Grand Canyon. Well not that drastic, but you know what I mean. You will have a scoop on all about it in my next post (which may or may not happen. But have a little faith in me ;)) !

xx
Back to Vampire Diaries. I'm so behind in everything because of my hectic life all this while!
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